the journey begins

another amazing weekend

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 05:47:04 GMT

yeah so this weekend was another amazing weekend. Spent more money then I should but it was soooo worth the wait. But this weekend also had its downers. Today (sunday) I went to the grand prix in long beach, so freaking awesome! I loved it! we missed the drifting (damn) which I REALLY wanted to see, BUT the main event made up for it. Afterwards we (brady, bell, chris and I) went to koffee klutch and has smoothies. Ww were laying on the lounges and this guy says "move bitch" to brady. Well he turned out to be gay haha and chris has this full on converstaion, well the cool thing was I found out we are seeing each other =] I couldnt have been happier.

After that Brady and Belle dropped us off at their house to pick up chris's car. We came back to my house to take a nap with I called to see where my parents where... sadly my grandma told me my great uncle died. I think its just hitting me now. And I am really sad about it, even though I didnt get to talk to him often or see him often its put a weight on me. Its hard to lose two people in less then a year. What I was really thankful was that Chris was there to comfort me, and it made a huge difference, its amazing what a little comfort can do. I dont think he knows how much that really ment to me. I should let him know. I am really going to miss uncle Derwood. He was a good man. And always seemed interested in my life when we talked. he was so kind. Reminded me a lot of Papa.

After that I couldnt really take a nap so we got ready and went to sunnys, oh yummy. And now he just left I have the hugest smile on my face. mmmmmmm I cant wait for nextweekend. who knows whats next.

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 06:18:32 GMT

so last sunday (the 3rd) was my bday, and I have to say it was the best ever, so amazing, only wish we could have met up with brady and belle, but nnoooooo their phone was on silent! punks. i really hope and think it was the begining of great things to come, its like I can feel it deep inside... there was only one person missing, and I hope he knows, where ever he is I miss him more then life itself.

Oh yeah, brady and belle took me to a new coffee shop in laguna, omg the best drinks and felt like I was in gypsy lounge or something, totally cool, i think its my new favorite place, screw starbucks.

haha I think koko fell in love with chris, its so cute.

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 09:20:59 GMT

totally awesome, I was at the harbor with nina tonight, and I saw giant squid! IT WAS FREAKING AWESOME! almost even touched one. I hope they are there again tomorrow night.

tomorrows to do list

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 04:36:38 GMT

Week 1 - 3 portfolio work
adigitalmemory.com video page (research and apply)
longs site (finish)
email Xtine link
Upload all portfolio work
email Geroge
take mlp pictures
finish duncans page

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 09:29:06 GMT

guys are freaking stupid, like hard headed in my own little world stupid. Hello wake up and smell the world...

Dream about Papa

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 01:59:59 GMT

Last night I had this strange dream that papa was in. It was back at my old house, my family was having a get together, it was the same setting at my 16th birthday party. I walked in, but I wasn't suppose to be there, like I had traveled back in time to see Papa again. I walked through the front door and into the kitchen, and out the sliding door I saw Papa standing in the same shirt he wore that day.

I ran up to him crying and crying. I gave the biggest hug. I held him so tight. He kept asking me what was wrong, and I replied with "I cant tell you, but I love you Papa I love you so much. I wish I could tell you". Its like something told me I couldn't mess with the past, things happen they way they are suppose to. My face was pressed against his shoulder and I could smell him, just the way he smelt like in real life.

I tore myself away from him and ran up to my old room. On a little piece of paper I wrote "I didn't tell him", as if it was a note for me or someone to find later on. I knew I couldn't stay anylonger and forced myself to leave.

I woke up this morning confused. I have kept wishing for the last few weeks that I could hug him one last time, and feel him hugging me back... and it feels like that wish has been fulfilled. I mean I have dreamed about things that I wished for before, but never felt like this after. I just don't know how to explain it, it was like he was really in my dream.

Goodbye Papa

Tue, 03 Aug 2004 07:58:33 GMT

Its been a week, and this void seems to be endless. I miss Papa more then words can describe. It doesn't seem fair I lost two so close to me in a week of each other, like some cruel joke that I just don't see the humor in. Life has a strange way of teaching everyone lessons, even though you can't why something happens for a reason.

I will miss him for the rest of my life. He meant so much to me. I still can't believe your gone Papa, and even though your ashes lay in your house, your not there to hug, to talk to, or to simply I have a secret. You were wiped away in a flash, with no warning you were gone. Now all I can do is find solitude in my sorrow. You meant the world to me Papa, I looked up to you so. Your really gone now arnt you? Into the eternal world I can not reach. I wish to see you again.

Everyone wishes to see a departed loved one, one last time, and I know its not possible. But I can still ask myself why your really gone, and find no valid answer why. I can only tell myself I will see you again one day, after I turn old and gray and my time is up. But for now that seems an eternity away.

You now live on through those who love you, through those you miss you, and I still wish for a small sign. A sign that you can hear me, a sign that you know how much you really mean to me. Will it ever come? I pray it does. Live without you is just not the same, and I doubt that it will ever be. There will always be a empty place in my life that you occupied.

I love you Papa, and one day, I will see you again.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 23:24:07 GMT

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Mix it with some...	Vanilla Bean
and...	Vanilla Milkshake
Serve with...	ice cubes
In a	Chilled Goblet
Your drink makes people feel...	relazed
At a Bar your drink costs	$13

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Wed, 21 Jul 2004 22:12:00 GMT

sad, sad day

Wed, 21 Jul 2004 01:42:01 GMT

Sunday was one of the worst days in my life. Kona had his surgery on the 13th, I had a bad feeling about it the whole time, but he made it through. He was find for about four days, eating and drinking just fine, and acting normal. Well Sunday I get back from shaunas and he isnt Kona at all, everything that should be pink was blue. I took his cage and ran down the stairs to my car then got in and drove off to the vet (not the one who did the surgery).

I was stopped at the light to get on the freeway and he wasnt doing good at all. I said "Im not going to let you die in that cage" and took him out and set him on my lap. I kept petting him and telling how much I loved him and was praying he wouldnt die on me.

I was about halfway to the vet when he started to go through spasms and on the last one he was gone. I cried all the way to the vet and still kept petting him. This beautiful brown eyes were now empty, I could hardly bare it. I tried to whip away my tears before walking into the vet, but once I started to talk to the receptionist I couldn't hold it in at all.

It was so hard to let them take his limp little body way from me, I didnt want to let go. He was such a good rabbit and I know he loved me as much as I loved him. After I paid for his body to be cremated I drove home with more tears. I couldn't believe he was gone, he just couldn't be.

I walk out to my back yard and keep thinking I will see him hop up to me and chase me around like he always would. I walk up the stairs and see his empty cage and cant help but cry.

Today I had Loki out side and started to clean his cage. As I was emptying the soiled litter into the trash Loki came running up to me at full speed and looked so much like Kona I had to put the bottom of the cage down and sunk to the floor crying. I sat there for about 10 min before I could continue what I was doing, and I didnt do it very well. Thats when I came to write this.

Kona will always be in my heart, even know he was a little rabbit, he was a part of me, and I will alway love him. I found a clump of his hair, and put it in a little pouch. I dont think ill ever have a bunny like Kona, he was really one of a kind, a special little rabbit. And I cant still help but cry.

not bad...

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 20:33:33 GMT

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You Met	in a fish and chip shop
You Have	3 children
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Wed, 14 Jul 2004 18:28:48 GMT

Arg so many bunny problems lately! First my dad leaves Loki out in the sun (he didnt mean to) and the poor lil guy had head stroke with a temp of 107.5, well I took him to the vet in time and now hes fine =] Thats twice now he came close to death! Then Kona decided to antagonize the boys out in the hutch and they somehow got out and kicked Konas ass... thats another $100 vet bill. But now hes neutered so maybe it was a good thing, but the poor lil guy seems like he's in pain and just lays there all day, and has a dish around his head.

Some fucking dumbass retarded called pizza hut and ordered a pizza under my number and address... gee I wonder who's retarded and stupid enough to do that... my goodness.

Something nathan said to me yesterday is kinda bothering me (im allowed to write it here, this is my journal after all) im not really worried about it, but its bothering, kind of like this though that just does not want to go away. It sort has has me second guessing myself... *sigh* everything seemed like it was almost to good to be true. Also he has said a few mean things which I think made what I was talking above worse. Not sure how to take all of this.

lol I think Kona hates me now, awwww I so sorry Kona but it was for your own good.

Job Huntin

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 04:38:04 GMT

Ok Eric at school was saying the best way to find a web job is to discover my interest and go from there, so here I go:

Fashion
Cosmetics
Interior Design
Toys
Rabbits
Horses
Magazines
Books
Shopping
Art
Entertainment

Books Wanted

Mon, 06 Oct 2003 16:45:30 GMT

The Honest Courtesan: Veronica Franco, Citizen and Writer in Sixteenth-Century Venice (Women in Culture and Society)
Veronica, meretrice e scrittora
Lettere by Veronica Franco
Risqué Beauty: Beauty Secrets of History's Most Notorious Courtesans
by Daniela Turudich
A History of Venice by John Julius Norwich (Paperback)
Plucked, Shaved & Braided: Medieval and Renaissance Beauty and Grooming Practices 1000-1600 by Daniela Turudich, Laurie J. Welch (Paperback)
Marriage Wars in Late Renaissance Venice (Studies in the History of Sexuality) by Joanne Marie Ferraro (Paperback)
Gaspara Stampa: Selected Poems
by Gaspara Stampa, Laura Anna Stortoni (Editor), Mary Prentice Lillie (Editor)
Women Poets of the Italian Renaissance by Laura Anna Stortoni (Editor), Mary Prentice Lillie (Editor)
Grandes Horizontales
by Virginia Rounding (Author)
The Seven Ages of Paris
by Alistair Horne (Preface), Maurice Druon
The Lord of the Rings (Leatherette Collector's Edition)
by J. R. R. Tolkien
The Hobbit (Leatherette Collector's Edition)
by J. R. R. Tolkien
A Perfect Day
by Richard Paul Evans
Ola: The Courtesan's Daughter
by Jewel E. Dearman (Hardcover - July 2002)

DVD's/VHS Wanted

Mon, 06 Oct 2003 16:19:11 GMT

Nicholas Nickleby (2002 ASIN: B00005RIWX)
Nicholas Nickleby (2002 ASIN: B00009MEJ4)
The Life and Adventures of Nicholas Nickleby (1981 B000068QOG)
Daniel Deronda (2002 ASIN: B0000897EC)
Vanity Fair (1999 ASIN: B000089QEN)
Tess of the D'Urbervilles (1998 ASIN: B000089QEM)
Berkeley Square (1998 ASIN: B00004W5P5 )
Wives and Daughters (1999 ASIN: B000059H6T)
Persuasion (1995 ASIN: B00003JRCQ)
Pride and Prejudice - The Special Edition (1996 ASIN: B00005MP58)
Sense and Sensibility (1995 ASIN: 0800141660)
The Tenant of Wildfell Hall (1997 ASIN: B00004WGBE)
Lorna Doone (2001 ASIN: B00005B1VM)
Aristocrats (1999 ASIN: B00004WGBT)
The Buccaneers (1995 ASIN: B00004WGBJ)
Solomon & Gaenor (1999 ASIN: B000051YMO)
The Triumph of Love (2001 ASIN: B00006JE4X)
The Emperor's New Clothes (2001 ASIN: B00006RCN9)
Duel of Hearts (1992 ASIN: 6302481716 )
The Count of Monte Cristo (2002 ASIN: B00006ADFM)
Jane Eyre (1997 ASIN: 0767020294)
Firelight (1998 ASIN: 6305268843)
Swept From The Sea (1998 ASIN: 080012412X)
David Copperfield (2000 ASIN: B00006HAZG)
Dangerous Beauty (1998 ASIN: 6305078319)
Dangerous Liaisons (1988 ASIN: 6304696515)
The Age of Innocence (1993 ASIN: B00003CX8S)
The Remains of the Day (Special Edition) (1993 ASIN: B00003CXC9)
Valmont (1989 ASIN: B000069I02)
The Lord of the Rings - The Two Towers (Platinum Series Special Extended Edition Collector's Gift Set) (2002)
The Lord of the Rings - The Fellowship of the Ring (Platinum Series Special Extended Edition) (2001)

sites

Tue, 16 Sep 2003 20:53:37 GMT

Does anyone know of any fakie sites? or mlp sites that have fakies listed?

Oh Gosh

Wed, 10 Sep 2003 18:50:59 GMT

Oh my gosh what a morning. First of all it was a total waist of my time to come to school, we did shit in class. We sat there while the teacher tried to do god know what on a freaking cart computer. Umm can we say refund. But the good thing is I designed a logo for mistyautumn.com:

http://www.mistyautumn.com/cip.gif

But cant decide which one I like best.

Then everything was going good. Fixed my classes and then I walked out to my car and thats where it all starts, I left my lights on and then locked my damn keys in my car, how much of a lame brain can I get for one day.

AND IM HUNGRY! Damn Damn Damn.

Thu, 04 Sep 2003 03:52:19 GMT

You are a Trojan Very Sensitive!

You like to be gentle, and comfort is your middle name.

You'd never do anything that didn't make you feel good.

You're also a little too emotionally sensitive - you need to work on that.

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newest custom

Mon, 28 Apr 2003 04:21:41 GMT

ok well i didn't know what to do with this pony at first. She was a custom I bought on ebay but wasn't really happy with. So I painted her white and pondered on her for a while. Then while surfing through mlp links I saw a baby graffiti, so I left this pony white and made a mom graffiti. Now I don't have baby graffiti so I went by the pictures.
*pictures have been taken down*
Misty

woohoo quizies

Fri, 18 Apr 2003 18:49:15 GMT

I Am The Sex Toy:

Hi-Tech Masterpiece: Some say that I was developed in a top secret lab while others say I was developed by aliens for my probing capabilities, but only I know the truth! My mission here on earth is to launch a full out assault on your genitals with my spinning beads, vibrations, and clitoris teaser. My LCD screen keeps you informed, but only with information I want you to have! Mwua-ha-ha!

Find out what sex toy you are.

My Romance Meter

Optimist 80%

20% Cynic

Close 95%

5% Distant

Long Term 69%

31% Brief

What does my romance meter read?

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emode Inkblot test score

Fri, 18 Apr 2003 18:34:36 GMT

Misty, your unconscious mind is driven most by Sexuality

What this means is that when your unconscious mind sees an opportunity to remind you of your sexual desires, it takes full advantage of it. Because of this, things that have very little sexual content or that seem sexually neutral to others, may register as sexually charged to you, at least on an unconscious level.

Your unconscious mind recognizes the value of sexuality. The reason it may do so, is because of a deep-rooted fear of the opposite — living a life that is numb to sexual desire or is turned cold by it. You unconscious mind may be trying to avoid this sexual dullness, and so it reacts by swinging to the opposite extreme, strong sexual desire. By sending you these sexual messages on a regular basis, your unconscious makes sure you don't forget about sex.

If you view your sexual desire with a positive attitude, you can welcome the vitality and strength sexual thoughts can bring into your life. This would allow you to honor the drive your unconscious has chosen to be an important focus for you. It is a message that you are very much alive, and have a great deal of passion to bring to life.

Though your unconscious mind is driven most strongly by Sexuality, there is much more to who you are at your core.

...shit I didn't need a ink blot to tell me that

to much

Thu, 13 Mar 2003 20:04:23 GMT

I think I lost my sanity in the other classroom =] I tired to look for it but gave up after 10 min. Hope it will return soon =P

Ok well this entry is really just for me, a list of things I have to do.

Before Monday:

Career Development HM
Geisha Animation and Flash Site
3 Herman Miller Flash Banners (fix up)
Gisha Poster (revise)
Broderia Biz cards
BRoderia Letterhead
Broderia Photo Touch up
3 More Broderia Comps
Touch up Comp 1 for Broderia
Touch Up Herman Miller Web Site (make it more corporate looking)
Print Ads for Broderia (flier & Post card)

Tuesday
MEET WITH INTERNSHIP TEACHER!!!!

By Thursday
Any of the web stuff above I did not finish
Enviro Si project

... this is how I feel

Tue, 04 Mar 2003 07:16:25 GMT

It's every day
I'm in this place
I feel this way
I feel the same
It's every day
I'm in this place
I feel this way
I feel the same

Is it all inside my head
Is it all inside my head
I view the my lips
And take my pick
I view my faith
And make a choice
'Cause it's nobody else's but mine

But you are in my heart
I can feel you're deep
And I lose my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name

So many days within this ways
I need the truth
I need some grace
I need the path
To find my place
I need some truth
I need some grace
The part of you
That's part of me
We'll never die
We'll never leave
And it's nobody else's but mine

You are in my heart
I can feel your beat
And you move my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name

You'll view their lips
And take your pick
You'll view my faith
And make a choice
'Cause it's nobody else's but yours

Your in my heart
I can feel you're deep
And you move my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name

'Cause your in my heart
I can feel you're deep
And you move my mind
From behind the wheel
And I lose control
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name
I can only breathe your name

hand writing analysis

Sun, 19 Jan 2003 09:41:21 GMT

ok tonight someone interpret my handwriting. He said my handwriting details the need for closure *sigh* and lately I find that so true. He also said I have the need to break free and I also have a lot of discipline and control. And it makes me think I want to be somewhere else in life and I wish I had my own place and could fly someone out here and finaly be happy... will it ever happen?

quizes quizes

Sat, 28 Dec 2002 20:40:06 GMT

Which Celtic Goddess are you?
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